Craig Owens from Chiodos Talks About Suicide Attempt
Published on July 25, 2008 by Daniel Taylor · 20 Comments
The other day, a post on Chiodos frontman and solo artist Craig Owen’s website said that he had almost O.D.ed on drugs and was taken to a hospital, then a nuthouse for observation. The post was quickly taken down, but Owens has now updated his blog with the details of the event, the situation surrounding it and his plans for the future. It’s kind of tl;dr but if you’re bored here it is:
Craig Owens from Chiodos Talks About Suicide Attempt,So, it’s no secret that I have recently went through one of the hardest times in my life. On Sunday, July 20th, I attempted to overdose on prescribed Xanax at my home here in Michigan. Flash ahead 12 hours later, I woke up in the emergency room surrounded by my family and best friends, with an IV in my left arm, and hooked up to machines. I felt confused, angry, selfish, and completely embarrassed. After being admitted to the hospital for a couple of days, I made my way to recovery and built up enough strength and courage with the support of my loved ones enough to make it back home.
I am okay, though. Thankfully, I had no permanent physical damage to myself from this.
This isn’t something that I went through by myself. I am, by no means, alone in this. My family and close friends have been by my side each minute since the incident and, you, my fans, have been right there with me too.I have received an incredible amount of MySpace messages, comments, emails, instant messages, text messages and voice mails supporting me through this time in my life. So many people loved me more than I ever thought and the amount of happiness that this brings to me is more than I ever could describe.
You have all shown me a new, blinding light within myself and from that ray you seem to shine on me with every one of your beautiful comments (and I read every single one of them), not to mention your undeniable support. Thanks to you, I’ve already began to return to my “normal†self- a person that I had forgotten all about.
Why did this happen?
I have been battling with manic depression, bipolar disorder, and constant anxiety attacks for years. This disease has caused me to hide in my bedroom for weeks at a time, push away the most important people in my life, and learn to hate myself even. I have tried to remain strong through the years, fighting off urges and using the undying support of my fans, friends, family, and loved ones to turn my depression into an art- a music to share with the world.
I also have been speaking with a therapist for around a year now, maybe more. This has helped me to come in touch with who I am as a human being and why I do the things that I do. Rationalizing my imperfections and trying to wear them as if they were badges of honor is something that I had learned to pride myself off of- until this incredibly selfish and stupid act I pulled.
What’s next?
I’m looking towards the future and have been blinded by the brightness of it. After taking care of myself over the past few days, and talking through this situation with my family, friends, and managers, I am committed to creating only positive actions out of the deepest and darkest low I have found myself in with this. I will not be canceling any upcoming shows, with the exception of this Sunday’s show (7/27) in Albany, NY with P.O.D and Everclear. My solo show this Saturday (7/26), WILL STILL BE HAPPENING, and will be an emotional and therapeutic experience, to say the least. With it being in Detroit, and being able to perform softly, with spoken-words, and seeing all of the people that have been by my side though this entire thing, I hope to find a new bliss within this rut I have found myself in.
I cannot wait enough to get back out onto the road with Chiodos for our just-announced headlining tour this August to October. Being in front of all of you gives me such strength and if I hadn’t been home so much for the past few months, thinking too much and allowing darkness to overcome me, who knows if this would have even had happened.
I have a long road ahead of me, no doubt, but I feel that this experience has, oddly enough, given me new strength to take control of my situation and it has shown my loved ones (and myself) the seriousness of what I’ve been struggling with too.
I will not stop playing music, writing, or opening myself up to the people that matter most to me. All we have is one another and this entire situation is nothing but a GIANT reminder that we ALL need to stay strong and hold one another up during even the hardest of times.
I love you- Craig.
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calling it a nuthouse is real nice, and mature.
craig’s fans love him and we’ll always be here by his side no matter what happens.
chiodos/cinsun fans are unlike any in the world and im sorry for anyone who cant see his great qualities and spirit.
craig loves me.
fuck, hopefully he succeeds next time
You think your funny dont you? lol whats funny is whether or not craig succeeded, he would still be more alive and remembered than you. Your dead to the world, fuck face
Trollolololololol
FUCK YOU ^
Craig Owens is such an amazing person.
yo, fat kevin, fall in a hole bitch!!!!
CRAIG ROCKS!!!!!!!!!
your fucking retarded kevin,
i love craig <3
Dude, suicide is no joke whatsoever.
Trust me, I know.
Kevin: I hope some starving African pygmy with a lip gauge the size of a dinner plate shows up at your house with a fork, fucking rips you limb from limb, and eats you alive with the assistance of his pet rhinoceros, Momo, then proceeds to quench his thirst with your fresh, fresh blood that appears to be Gagorade. Yes, GAGorade.
HAHA YA KEVIN that was hilariouls mirrissa
anyway craig is my favorite singer and will always be my favorite singer. The whole singing high idea, is completey original.
craig your an amazing singer dood!
dnt ever do that again.
your so freakin talented at what you do.
your an amazing singer and as a person!
p.s dnt listen to kevin hes just a llitle bitch
and hes jealous cause he sing as badass as you can
Fuck you kevin fuckin pussy!
CRAIG OWENS IS BADASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i sucked craigs penis in his native flint michigan a couple years ago and his penis was uncircumsized and had smegma all over it (rotten semen). it was utterly disgusting. when i told him it was to gross to continue you slapped me in the back of the head and said if i didnt leave he’d “cut me to pieces”. regardless of the facad he put up about being a cool guys he’s a complete asshoe, no wonder why he attemped this. who would be able to live with themself being such a violent and thoughtless asshole. maybe if he washed himself atleast once in a while he could live with himself
Your a fucking idiot. but you think this is funny right? look at your comment rating u slut
folks sure seem to get trolled pretty easily around here, don’t they?
Dang, the fanboys who follow this sack of shit have some kindof pineapple up their arse. Geez, this dude must be a reeeal prick if his fans are ultra pricks. Anyway, I used to be real cruel and selfish when I was hardcore into drugs and alcohol. I was self destructive and I didn’t care what people thought of me, so I’d not wash inbetween sex sessions, amused and turned on that they’re still doing it… I’ll tell you what, you should’ve squashed his nuts and constantly punched him in the nose.. He will sharpen up real quick. Any junkie would.
I just heard about this today and it was such a shocker.
I was thinking..no, no, no, I hope he’s okay.
Then I found this and it brightened my day, knowing he’s alright and getting better, it’s good.
Craig, you have too much talent to just throw it away.
I love you and all of Chiodos.
<3 <3.
Hey Craig. Im battling anxiety and depression. I’m manic depressive and sometimes I have the highest highs people think I’m on drugs. YOur song, If you think this song is about you it probably is helps me. Ive had so many break downs and hurt people that I love and contemplate if they care about me. When I read you share some of the same things as me it made me cry of humanity. I wish the best for you, I’m working on getting prescribed xanax or klonopin for my irrational anxiety because those make me feel normal. Tjank you SO FUCKING MUCH for your music. SO FUCKING MUCH.
hey my name is isaiah i am your biggest fan y did they did that to u. u r the best chiodos has to offer i look up to u
an your songs r the best i know them by heart an i just have to say i would do anything to meet u i wont to be just like u an im 14 an i will do anything to get ride of the new singer an i can make that happen i know u will never read this but my num is 3374595771